Photo: Melanie Acevedo
ForTamron Hall, in vitro fertilization was a big part of her journey toward eventually becoming a mom to sonMoseson April 24.
But at first, her emotions about so many women now undergoing the treatment were mixed, as the formerTodayhost had “tried fertility procedures” previously, in her 30s, and not been successful.
“At one of the first fertility clinics, it was so eye-opening,” Hall, 48, recalls to PEOPLE of her “tough” experience this time around. “I walked in, and there were probably 200 women going in and out.”
“You’re smacked with the reality of ‘You’re not alone,’ but it didn’t feel empowering,” she explains. “It felt sad because I thought, ‘We’re not alone, but we’re allstill holding on to some hope thatsome of us will have to give up along the way.’ ”
Tamron Hall and son Moses.Melanie Acevedo
Hall “knew that that clock was not on [her] side” when it came to conceiving her own biological child with husbandSteven Greener, a music manager whom she wed under the radar, surprising fans.
“When I tried in my 30s, I still felt like I had some time, and the fertility clinic felt like a bright room,” she tells PEOPLE. “Inmy 40s I saw all thegray: The faces looked gray, the walls were gray, nothing seemed shiny and optimistic.”
“Just like with my job search during that time, there were so many frustrations: I’m putting in the work, I’m taking care of my mind and my body, and I’m being rejected,” says Hall of the time following her involuntary departure fromToday‘s third hour in 2017. (She is nowset to host her own syndicated talk show, premiering Sept. 9.)
“I’m thinking, ‘Wait a minute. What have I done wrong here?’ ” she recalls. “Somehow, like Rocky, I kept getting up.”
“I knew, ‘I can’t just sit and lie in this bed,’ ” says the mother of one. “I decided, ‘When I stayed in, it didn’t work,so this time I have to live my life.’ I think that was also part of me empowering myself and saying, ‘Even if this time doesn’t work out, I’m going to be okay.’ Obviously I didn’t do anything risky, but I wasn’t going to be the person I was on the other tries. I had to keep living. ”
source: people.com
