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Chrissy Teigen Was Against Colorful Toys Before Becoming a Mom, But Postpartum Changed Her Mind (Exclusive)

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Chrissy Teigenis sharing a lesson she took away from a painful time in her life.

“If you saw theArchitectural Digest,John [Legend] and I both are really quite a neutral palettewhen it comes to us as a couple. So our Petal Pop with the wagon was really important to me. With Luna, I started out thinking, ‘Oh no, I’m never going to have bright-colored toys.’ I wanted everything to fit in the house and look so beautiful and peaceful.”

“Once we started growing and having more children, I realized the importance of color in their lives and the importance for them to wear color and how it makes them feel fun and special. The idea of seeing things in color was really important to me because, with my first pregnancy with Luna, I wasn’t seeing things in color necessarily,” referencing her time with postpartum depression.

“It wasn’t until I got over that hump and really started to appreciate color that it really changed my mood. So I wanted something bright and beautiful and fun for them. That’s why the wagon embodies all the things I think children need to see, and really all of us. Having color in your world is really important.”

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For Teigen, the partnership is also a nice way to support an organization close to her heart.

Chrissy Teigen Opens Up the ‘Warmth and Love’ in Relationship with Surrogate Who Helped Welcome Wren

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“For me, the hardest part is making sure the older ones feel loved and taken care of and just as special as the babies, even though you might have your hands on the babies a lot more,” Teigen says of the adjustment.

“There’s a lot ofdiaper changingand feeding and it seems like you’re coddling these two little babies and they’re not getting enough. I was speaking with my therapist and I was like, ‘I’m having a hard time because I want to make sure thatMiles and Lunafeel like we still love them.'”

She continues, “I think any parent of multiple kids can understand that you want to make sure they still feel loved.”

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John Legend and Chrissy Teigen family photos

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When it came tousing a surrogate to complete her family with Wren, Teigen says she’s “just really happy” it turned out the way it did.

“It felt very much like a village. It felt very much like the waypeople in my mother’s family raised their childrenwhen they were literally living in the villages of Thailand. It just feels like such good camaraderie around each other and warmth and love.”

“I was never one of those people who believe in hoarding all of this love for myself. I don’t get jealous when my children love on somebody else or hug them. To me, more love is more love and that’s what I’ve always wanted and it’s been really working out for us. We’re so lucky.”

source: people.com